Lena didn’t see the storm coming—not all at once. In many ways, it had been building quietly. There were moments of hope, times when things seemed to settle, when she thought a peaceful transition might still be possible. But then, the unthinkable happened: the letter of transfer they had requested was refused, and her husband was cast out instead (3 John 9-10). What had once seemed like a clear path forward disappeared beneath a wave of confusion and grief. And yet, through every shift, every wound, every strained relationship, one thread held her steady: Rest in the Lord, and wait patiently for him: fret not thyself [do not be angry] because of him who prospereth in his way, because of the man who bringeth wicked devices to pass" (Psalm 37:7).
What unfolded in the months that followed left a lasting imprint on Lena’s heart. As the ground shifted beneath her, she came to see that Christ was not only her foundation—He was her steady, faithful companion. In the quiet ache that followed—the cold silence, the weight of a false narrative, the burden left behind by oppressive leadership—Lena rested in a deeper truth: her identity wasn’t shaped by the judgments of others. It was rooted in the love of the Lamb of God, the One in whom the Father delights. She belonged to Him. He had already borne her shame, silenced her accusers, and secured her place in the family of God. Even when others misunderstood her, the Lord never did. He was not distant. He was near. And gently, faithfully, He was leading her forward.
There were days Lena felt the pull toward bitterness. The ache of being misunderstood cut deep. But Psalm 37 kept calling her back: “Mark the perfect man, and behold the upright: for the end of that man is peace” (v. 37). She wasn’t called to fix everything or force others to see. She was called to mark—to notice, to follow—the path of the upright.
She found herself remembering her growing-up years, how her father—also a pastor—had encouraged her to read missionary biographies. His guidance in truth, shaped by a deep reverence for God, had formed her view of ministry. That’s why what she later experienced under an oppressive leader felt so foreign—it caught her off guard. But recalling the lives of others who had followed the Lamb closely—those who modeled His acceptance, hospitality, and biblically grounded love—helped her breathe again.
The silence that followed was soul-deep. Though they had been misunderstood, Christ had not misunderstood them. He had walked with them through every step of the upheaval. Lena found comfort in the story of Jonathan and Sarah Edwards—how, even after Jonathan was expelled from his own church, God continued to use them to minister to the American Indians. Their quiet obedience in the face of rejection reminded her that peace comes not from public approval but from walking in step with God’s purposes.
She didn’t have to carry every burden. She didn’t need every answer. God knew. And His peace would come through trusting. Peace didn’t come from being heard—it came from walking uprightly, hand in hand with Christ.
And now, Lena could see that God had also answered a prayer she had whispered many times during the darkest months: Deliver us from evil. What they had walked through was not merely miscommunication or insecurity—it was oppressive leadership, the kind that quietly demanded conformity, then veiled its demands in spiritual language. Over time, control gave way to concealment. Truth was obscured. Questions weren’t just discouraged—they were met with deflection, blame, and, at times, outright deceit.
In time, Lena no longer doubted what she had once struggled to name. The Lord had exposed it clearly. And with that clarity came freedom—a freedom to rest, to heal, and to follow the One who had always been leading her into peace.
In His mercy, He brought them to a new place. The church they joined wasn’t large or impressive by worldly standards—but it was full of grace. The Word of God was honored. Consciences were respected. Questions weren’t met with suspicion but with patience, humility, and Scripture. And perhaps most healing of all, Lena noticed a deep respect for each person’s individual walk with the Lord—grounded in His Word. In conversations and prayer times, she heard others speak freely about how God was leading them through His Word. Growth was evident on many levels. Honesty was apparent. This felt like home—like the kind of Christianity she had witnessed each day in her mother, quietly fellowshipping with the Lord, her Bible spread before her. Here, too, truth was sought, and the women spoke of it freely. The people around her seemed genuinely intent on walking in step with the Lord.
“And the Word was made flesh, and dwelt among us … full of grace and truth.” (John 1:14)
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